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9月9日

原来,这一切的开始就是个错误

时间一直地走 不断地走 无尽地走
擦不掉的是不停的往事
活在时间的前端 灵魂却滞留在过去
时间不断带来压力 心中也所剩无力
或许 选择存在的那一刻根本不该有
还是 存在只是为了弥补所有错误
繁华世界 带来看清一切的理智
时间流逝 最终都只带着一切往事
原来 这一切的开始就已经是个错误
8月30日

女孩常用的謊言(男孩必看)[转载]

女孩常用的謊言(男孩必看)

我們還是當朋友好了(其實你還是有多餘的利用價值)

我想我真的不適合你(我根本就不喜歡你。)

天氣好冷喔,手都快結冰了(快牽我的手吧,大木頭!)

我覺得我需要更多一點的空間(我不太想看到你啦!)

其實你人很好(我不想跟你在一起。)

你人真的很好(我真的不想跟你在一起。)

你人真的真的很好....真的(豬頭,離我遠一點。)

我暫時不想交男朋友(閃邊啦!你還不到我心中帥哥標准的一半。)

我不想傷害我們之間的友誼(我們之間也永遠只會有友誼。)

你這樣讓我感到很尷尬(我無法強迫自己說我不想說的答案。)

我的心中牽掛著一個人(那個人是我特地虛設用來擋像你這種人的。)

朋友才是長久的,不是嗎(想當我男朋友,自己不照照鏡子。)

我從來沒想過這個問題(這根本是不可能的嘛!別做白日夢啦。)

我不適合當個情人(廢話,沒有人會適合當你情人的啦。)

你給我時間考慮(沒給我時間,我怎麼跑得掉....)

我不可能變班的(雖然理由很爛,不過擋你綽綽有餘啦。)

我們的距離太遠了(當個朋友就不錯了,還想有的沒的。)

你的條件真的很好(你的條件真的還沒好的我想要的地步。)

可是...這樣好怪..真的很怪(你這丑八怪..怪成這樣還想吃天鵝肉?)

我覺得男女之間是真的有純友誼的(對,我你之間就真的只可能有純友誼。)

坐的機車可以呀,騎機車很方便的(窮小子,沒汽車還敢來接送我。)

但你的溫柔我會銘記在心的(情聖!光溫柔是沒用的,還需要錢錢..)

其實我一直沒有勇氣接受你(看到你差點嚇死..哪裡還有勇氣?)

你真可愛(你真幼稚。)

你真的很可愛(你真的很幼稚。)

你真的是超級可愛耶(豬頭!不要像小朋友一樣黏啦!)

遇到你,總會讓我重溫童年的快樂(感覺就像阿姨遇到小弟弟一樣。)

我覺得你很乖耶(穿得俗不拉基的,一看就知道跟你出去不好玩。)

我們應該給彼此一點緩沖時間(給你時間滾!你再不走,我真的會翻臉!)

上次遲到真的很不好意思(先遲到給你看,下次我絕對不會到!)

別人都說你條件不錯耶(我從來沒這樣認為過。)

如果我們早一點認識就好了(說不定你會早點覺悟。)

別急嘛,我們可以先作朋友(我可以趁這個時候找男朋友。)
8月26日

夜、寂静

 
夜,浅睡梦长
起则难继,眠则多倦;
寂静,夏蝉噤也
忆午之争,赘则增也;
心否宁,剖心不解
某等信用,陌则不明;
诉则难也,通更难也;
不明不明。
 
8月25日

insomnia.... lost

不等到极限都不会睡。
一张小小的单人床,却总是找不到正确的方式睡觉。
就算睡了,也会不知哪里不舒服而半夜醒来。
总会觉得有些事情还没解决,但又无法指出什么事。
睡着了心里还惦着是否有什么事没做;
起来了身体总是无所事事。
是忧郁、是失眠还是有未完成终不得而知。
睡觉,对现在的我已不再是舒服而且能放松的事了。
是累了,是放弃也是逃避,逃避一些显然我已经忘记了的事情。
或者是一些未知的事。
起来,看着天空想着很多事,
很多以前没想过的事,很多人生道理,很多哲学性道理。
 
突然记起以前奕钦曾经说过的这么一句话:“就连我自己都不了解我自己,别人又怎样了解我呢?”
 
8月24日

陰霾......(散文)[转贴]

我的淚無聲地從臉頰滑落。窗外下起了如注的雨,突然覺得胸口好悶,悶得令人窒息。愛人,我捨不得你走。

        一個人慢慢步行在熙來攘往的大街上時,無邊的孤寂將我無情地吞沒。我不知道,在旁人看來戀人之間多麼正常的交往 ,什麼對你來說卻是那麼難。我總是不斷地檢討自己,是不是我對你提的要求太多了太苛刻了,讓你無力承擔?

         我希望在陽光明媚的日子裏,能牽著你的手到處走走,笑容一如陽光般燦爛;我希望在雙休日的早上,一打開門就有你的身影,帶著我離開這喧鬧的都市,去田園去鄉間尋找難得的溫馨和寧靜;我想在雨中和你共一把傘,讓絲絲細雨都羨慕我倆的恩愛;我想坐在你的自行車後座,握住你伸向我的溫暖的手;我做飯給你吃,看著你狼吞虎咽般吃完,然後告訴我明天還來吃我做的飯;我說過我願意和你一起做任
何的事,看著你在身旁,我的心才會前所未有的踏實……

          幾乎,所有的都只是我的空想。於是,我常常自責,是我自己不夠好,才不能讓你好好來愛我。我覺得很累, 我,也 這樣和我在一起的你。我無數次想著放棄,無人的夜晚我抱著枕頭哭泣,想象著身邊沒有你的日子將會是怎樣,我近乎窒息。愛人,我不能沒有你。只有你的無情才能讓我死心。可是你一點一滴對我好了起來。

          胸口還是很痛很痛,我不敢入睡,我怕睡了以後再不會醒來。愛人,如果這時你來看我,抱著我,讓我在你的肩頭痛哭一晚,那有多好。這樣的一個夜晚過後,也許我就不會再想著你就會心痛流淚了
8月20日

随意题

无边无尽的天空,缺的是一个能够有同样心思的人陪你静静地看;
一望无际的大海,多的是一群能够撕碎你的鲨鱼等着你跳下海去。
 
无论走到哪里,人,总是不会孤独。孤独的,永远是没共鸣的心。
静静地,心中却各怀所思。
嘈杂的人群,麻醉了心中一切的孤独,得到与他人共鸣般的幻觉。
孤独并不可怕,而可怕的是怕孤独的心需要幻觉。
 
8月13日

今天,经过多日沉浸在烟霾的美里终于下了场阵雨。此雨不长,大雨时约半小时,小雨历时一个半小时。炎热的美里得到暂时的舒缓,令人关心的烟霾也暂时消失了。雨,却没有浇灭林火,反而更让火冒黑烟。约傍晚时分,烟霾恢复了,到处弥漫浓浓的焦味。据某报社指出,此火烧了约600公顷的次生林,都烧了半年了,报纸才来写,真是“新”闻咯。
 
今天早上,我去学校上研究课,大清早天就乌云密布,凉风习习的,根据以往的估计,云的厚度雨应该可以维持半天,却忘了计算风向。课后,才刚进门大雨就紧跟在后。下了一个多小时。没多久,炎热的沥青地就把一个多小时的雨水烘干了。下午的课也就开始以往的闷热。怎么台湾的雨不分一半来,那么就不会死那么多人而这里却准备分段制水啦。
 
马银行股票今天回弹了,全天上升了八分。幸亏早上起来留意到有回弹的迹象,才没有失去买及时股的机会^^,之前的贵股还在找机会卖掉。
8月12日

生活小事

很久没有用中文写字了。今天,早上去上了两个小时的课,接着就没有课了,所以就找个回家的朋友载我下镇一趟。因为我的银行卡出了少许问题,我无法在网上购物,询问了银行的客户服后说是有必须去亲自去银行办手续。去到了美里唯一的镇,也找到了银行。银行外观倒是不错,里面也十分繁忙,但是就明显地拥有旧款装潢。然后,我直接走到客户服务台,说明来历。原来,美里的银行不是可以长话短说的,可能他们不赶时间吧!我把电话客户服务的说的东西告诉他们完全就是浪费时间,因为他们完全没听说过那种名词。从柜台客户服务小姐到资深的幕后人员,竟然没有人懂是什么名词。半个小时里,我都在讲,但是他们却问了又问,再三确定我做的东西。我心里偷偷的想,这个小镇真的那么落后吗?怎么可能一点专业的样子都没有?柜台小姐还露出一副不耐烦的样子,怎么她不专业还能在柜台服务的?后来,资深的幕后人员打电话回 总公司询问,出来的结果还不是和我说的没两样... 我实在无言以对。在纸上签了个名后,拿回我的卡,就回家去买机票。终于买到了,有够感动,因为某陈小姐烦了我很多天^^
 
可是,我的lens adapter还是没有办法网上买,有点想回去问银行,却又不想浪费时间。只好等哥哥上网叫他帮我,等了好久。
今天,马银行股票跌了两毛,很想买却狠不下心。多天来都是三两分的上升,却跌个两毛。希望再跌,不然补不回损失的五十块,伤心。云顶跌了很多天了,看情况还能跌。
8月11日

going to loss my room

This October, everything will become different from before. Well, the previous message isn't copy from the introduction of the prelude of movie but I am going to loss my room when i go home. Nothing much, my lovely brother is going to marry with his lovely girlfriend whom I called sister-in-law but what is the relationship between my brother's wedding and my room? The problem is my parents planning decorate my room to become the bridal chamber. Ops, everytime i go home the first thing i remember is my messy room but now no more. It gonna be very tidy and fully red when I go back. Definitely, i have no chance to see my room for the last. I have no idea where my stuff are going to move to. Worst thing should be I no longer have my own room and i dunno where i m going to sleep. Previously, my brother love to sleep in the living room instead of sleeping room since we are sharing the same room. But now, everything gonna change. I am going to sleep living room and my brother will sleep in sleeping room. What a nice turnover=.='
 
I would like to buy my camera a 58mm filter but damn canon selling their filter at the sky price. Shit, a piece of uv filter need 250 and polarizer need around 300 even hoya also need 270 something to have a nice filter. Gosh, my card can't proceed to online shopping and i wonder why. Now looking for a person who can help me buy my filter adapter. When talk about camera, it remind me that my brother don't have hired any videoman to record his wedding. From what he told me, he never plan to have a video man and i am the choosen one=.=" Frankly speaking, I hold my camera more than a camcorder and my camera skill still not mature enough. Now he wants me to help him record video. I totally can't imaging what's going on. What's more, my family has never own a camcorder and he wants me learn to use within 1 day when i go back to KL. Am i going to spoil the video quality? i do not know yet. Perhaps there is somebody else can teach me well and i do wish I am a quick learner.
8月2日

a backpack to singapore

I went to singapore during my sem break for a backpack tour. I've a plan to singapore since the start of my sem break, but I could only achieved my aim during the second last week of my sem break. It was a 6D6N trip to singapore. A backpack tour to singapore is quite interested me because Singapore impressed me a lot and I choose singapore because there is nearest place to my country and my brother also stay singapore. For this backapck tour, I was roughly spent RM2k for the whole trip which is including hotel, food, transport and etc but since I stay my brother house therefore I just spent around RM1k^^
 
First night, I took aeroline express bus to singapore. This bus took me RM180 for return ticket because it has bigger seat and provide me 1 meal. I was boarding on bus around 6pm at Corus Hotel and it schedule take 5 hours to Singapore Harbour Front Station. However, there are so many people when crossing the checkpoint, a long queue of people waiting to enter singapore. So when i arrived at my brother living place was already 12pm. Nothing much I can do instead of sleep.
 
First day, it was a good day and my first day in Singapore. I had my breakfast with my brother at around 6am and go back to his room continue my sleep after. Around 10am, I ready myself and heading to Orchard. I went to Orchard not because I want to shopping and I have no interest in shopping since my budget not that much. I went because I wanna find a place called Tourism Board somewhere around Orchard. Inside toursim board, I got a free singapore map, some latest information about singapore and information about places of interesting in singapore. After that, I took the MRT to Novena, velocity mall for a pair of sport shoes. There are lots of sport shops in velocity mall. Finally, I've bought a pair of New Balance all terrain sport shoes. After that, I rush back to Clementi, my brother house before 7 for a dinner in schedule.
 
The second day, it was a real day I start my tour. I left my brother house together with my brother at 6.30am. The first place I was heading to is Southern Ridges National Park. I took 20-30 mins bus to Alexandra Road and began my walk from a bridge called Alexandra Arch. Although it called a forest walk, but in fact I was walking on a walkway which is quite far away from ground, feels like treetop walking. Along the trail, I found that there is quite peaceful and beautiful place. When I arrived at Mount Faber, I saw a bridge wtih a quite unique design and local called Henderson Waves. This bridge looks wooden but when it feel so stable and safe when I walked on it. I could saw the Harbour view at one side of the bridge and another side is city centre, it feel nice. After this 9km walk within 2 hours, I end this walk at Harhour Front then I continue my trip to MacRitchie Reservoir Park. MacRitchie park is a nice park. When I was walk alone in that park, I was forgotten where I am but just feel like I am free and far away from a rushing city, just so relaxing. One thing very important I've to say, never ever not prepare enough food and water before goes into park else will regret. I took 4 hours from the entrance of MacRitchie park walk to HSBC TreeTop canopy. I have no time to look around the pretty scene in the forest, because the trail is so narrow and quiet. In additional, I just took my breakfast at 6.30am and 2pm I was still deep inside the forest and I need to take another 4 hours to leave the forest=.=". Therefore, I decided to leave the original walkwayand take shortcut to the roadside to take taxi to the nearst MRT station. After my lunch at MRT station, I went to cityhall. From cityhall MRT station, i walked to esplanade mall and take photos bout the durian design exhibition mall and merlion of singapore and also the singapore flyer which is the highest in asia or world. Singapore has a very beautiful cityscape especially during the sunset. This night, i went home at 11pm. I made a conclusion that's never ever say singapore very small, you can walk until lame also haven't finish whole singapore and singapore not only a city but a green city with many forests.
 
Third day, I couldn't wake up that early anymore because my leg is painful and tired. I woke up at 10am something, then I went to Singapore Science Centre. No other reason but I went for the Da Vinci exhibition. The science centre is divide into few departmant which is everything about science including mathematics. The Da Vinci exhibition was not allowed camera inside. So I can only keep my camera. Inside the exhibition, there are few real Da Vinci notebooks and all Da Vinci invention and some models that Da Vinci has never make it true. I went to Singapore Zoo after 4 hours of walk inside science centre. Singapore zoo isn't smelly as what we thought or maybe not as smelly as M'sia Zoo or maybe no smell. I was very late only arrived at zoo, so I left very few time for walk around whole zoo and I've no enough time to finish the whole zoo at last. Then I straight away goto Night Safari which located just next to the zoo. Few step of walk then can experience the world first night safari. In Night Safari, camera flash also not allowed. Therefore, taking photos is very hard problem. In Night Safari, I saw a lots of night action animals. The animal impressed me is the fishingcat, it sit beside the river looking at the fishes swimming around, then suddenly a paw smash on water and a fish simply drop beside the river. And when i walked further inside the safari, some tourist found a snake lying on the trail and eating a frog. I only watched it in Discovery channel but now I saw it with my eyes, really fantastic. After that, I saw tiger and leopard with a very close distance which probably less than 1feet distance. And also Flying fox and some bats with a hand distance, really shocked.
 
During the fourth day, i woke up early morning as usual. Today, my first destination was the world largest bird park, Jurong Bird Park. It has 600 species and 8000 birds inside, a fascinating number of birds. When I entered to the park, it was just the right time they start their show. I saw how those animal trainer command those bird. After that, I saw real owls finally because I've never seen owls and most probably watch in animal planet. This park took me another 4 hours to finish all the bird and I was quite tired because I never sit down in the park. After finished three parks, people might ask me why goto those parks. It was because of there is a promotion that enter three parks just S$45 while normal price is S$58. No matter gain or loss, it just a nice experience of visiting other countries zoo so that can make a comparison. After the bird park, I went to Sentosa Island which is a place most people know when talking about Singapore. Sentosa Island has changed a lot. About 5years ago, visit to the biggest merlion and music fountain was free of charged. However, today i saw a lot of price on their signboard. Almost everything also has a price. So, I only went to beaches looking for the sunset and pretty girls. On the way to beach, I saw the casino still underconstruction and a roller coaster track. Should be another themepark with charges. Following was I bought a ticket to the music fountain, Song of the Sea. This music fountain is talking about a touching story about a princess and a boy with fascinating music and attractive style of spraying water and gorgeous fireworks.
 
The fifth day, although I still have many places haven't go thru but I was running out of time and feel exhausted because walk around 12 hours everyday. Today, I don't feel like walk so much. I just planning to goto chinatown because of I gonna buy something which my mom ask me to buy. I left my brother house around 11am and heading to clementi station for a lunch. Then I went to chinatown for a rattan mat. After asking few shops about that mat, they told me in chinatown only 1 shop is selling rattan mat. That shop is a 100years old shop in chinatown selling some oils. For that mat, I was shocked when they told me the price. That very thin rattan mat cost S$180. I am glad that I underestimated the price and I have no that amount of money with me. Then I rushed around for money and luckily I got it. After that I went home and wait for dinner with my brother. Before I have my dinner, I went to subway in westcoast plaze. I am afraid that a pretty girl work there but unfortunately I cannot tackle her. Then I had fishhead steamboat as dinner around 11pm with my brother. And my singapore trip was end at the following morning 8am at harbour front also.
 
In conclusion, as a backpacker, never ever goto shopping centrer themepark else people will look at you with a very strange sight because all of them are couples or families but you are the only one lonely man. Unless you have go a companion, and both of you like to walk indoor instead of seeing culture and the beautiful scene of the country.
6月11日

two conversation...

i went back to my hometown after final exam.
on the way from airport back to my home...
Mom:" son, how was ur final exam??"
son:" hmm... my final exam paper and i was just like dog and cat."
Mom:" just like dog looking at cat never fear and can kick it butt, then result must be very well lor."
son:" nope, i was just like cat which only know miau miau and exam paper like a dog know to wow wow, what i answer wasn't what they want."
mom:" ......" =.=||
 
 
when i arrived at home, my dad saw me and ask me...
dad:" son, i let you sleep well; i let you eat well; i let you live well, but why you dun study well ler?"
son:" dad, because you give me a well life there, so i cant study well lor."
dad:" ???"
son:" my lecturer told me oh, everything in this world is balance de, if i got nice life, sure my result will not nice then only can balance de."
dad:" ...."
4月30日

uncivilized bush fire in a civilized place

these few photos were aquired nearby my campus area. It has been around three weeks no raining in miri, sarawak. What we can say is burst, quite hot and dry. after two weeks, the bush and brushwood around my living area has started on fire. what i knew is the bush which first on fire was actually 10km from the site burning as u seen in photos and the fire has burned for weeks ago. while our lovely government urging us not to burn illegally in penisular, here have several government's place are on fire. So far, i haven't seen any fire brigade send any fire engine to extinguish the fire. So, what had our government done or they just said said only? further more, the fire spread quite fast because of the hot weather and strong wind. As you see in the photos, those trees and bush in brown colour has already tortured by the fire and the fire still spreading around the civilized place which is my university but non of the civilized person in charge in my university to call for any fire engine to extinguish the fire.
 
When i was young, the smoke from the kalimantan island tortured us once a year and cause a lot of children suffer from breathing illness and we called it air pollution from indonesia. But now i realised it our own country also one of the participants whom making the air pollution. Some said, the fire was started by hot weather but some said the fire was caused by human. No matter, it burn one week ago but still haven't see any government department take responsibility on the bush fire. As a citizen, i can only see and sigh.
 
 
P/S: smoking cause lung cancer, but what about inhale smoke from bush fire? can we take any action to sue anyone if we suffer from lung cancer?
4月17日

十年后落在咖啡杯里的眼泪[转载]

叮呤……
门上的铃当响了起来,一个年约三十岁,穿著笔挺西服的男人,走进了这家飘散着浓浓咖啡香的小小咖啡厅。
“午安,欢迎光临!”年轻的老板娘亲切地招呼着。
男人一面客气地微微点了点头,一面走到吧台前的位子坐了下来。开口对老板说:“麻烦给我一杯摩卡,谢谢。”
“好的,请稍候。”老板娘微笑着说。
接着便开始熟练地磨碎咖啡豆,煮起咖啡来。
男人一直带着笑容看着老板娘煮咖啡的动作,似乎对这样的景像感到相当喜欢。过了没多久,老板娘便将一杯香醇的咖啡端到男人的面前。“请慢用。””谢谢。”男人将杯子拿到嘴边,浅浅地尝了一口。
“第一次来吗?”老板娘问。
“是啊!”男人答。
“觉得我们这家店怎么样?”
“很不错,气氛很好!”
“我自己也是很喜欢,所以虽然生意不好,我和我先生却还是舍不得把它关掉。”
“嗯……”男人好似有所同感地点了点头,又喝了一口咖啡。
两人沉默了一会,使得空荡的店里只剩下悠扬爵士音乐。这时男人忽然开了口,打破了这短暂的宁静。
“呃……不好意思,可以请教你一个问题吗?”
“什么问题呢?”老板娘好奇地问。
“嗯……这……这该怎么说好呢?”男人抓着头,一副不知所措的样子。
“你可以先听我说个故事吗?”老板娘点了点头,示意男人继续说下去。
“我以前有个很要好的女朋友,已经到了要论及婚嫁的地步。我和她之间的感情发展得相当平凡,并不是什么经过大风大浪、轰轰烈烈般的爱情。但我想从我第一眼看到她的时候,就仿佛有一股魔力,有一个声音,在推动着我,在告诉着我,就是她了,她就是我一直期待着的女孩。
更令我高兴的是她也响应了我的示爱,接受了我。这一切的顺利让我整个人陶醉于幸福的喜悦之中,只不过……”
“只不过,发生了什么事了吗?”老板娘打断了男人的话。
“嗯……”男人脸色沉了下来,略微停顿了一下后,又继续开口说下去。”只不过我忘了幸福的背后,往往藏匿着最可怕的恶魔。就在我们订婚前一个月的一个晚上,她……她却遭到歹徒的强暴……”
“啊!”老板娘惊讶地啊的一声叫了出来。
“都怪我!要是我那天坚持送她回去就好了!”男人用力地捶打着桌面,使得杯子中的咖啡因剧烈的震动而洒了出来。
“你要我问的该不会就是这个吧。”老板娘一面擦拭着洒出来的咖啡一面说。
“不,不是的!我对她的感情不会因为这样而有所动摇,我决定仍旧如期订婚,可惜就在我们订婚的那一天,她……上吊自杀了。”男人说话的语调十分地平静,但从他的表情上看得出,当时的他是多么的难过与震惊。
“自杀!那她有没有怎么样?”老板娘睁大了眼睛,紧张的看着男人。
“幸运的是我们发现得早,送到医院时还有气,只是脑部因为长时间缺氧,而呈现昏迷状态,甚至一度有成为植物人的危险。”
“那她后来有醒过来吗?”
“有的,她醒了!”
“但……但当我得知她醒了的消息,高兴地要去看她时,却被她父母给拦在门外。”
“为什么?她父母为什么不让你去看她?”
“当她父母跪在地上求我的时候,我才知道原来她失去了记忆,失去了认识我以后的记忆,医生说这是选择性失忆症,当人在遭遇极大的打击时,会逃避性的藏起一些记忆。她父母求我暂时不要再出现在他面前,他们认为让她就这样忘了之前的一切对她比较好,怕我要是去见她或许会让她回想起来,到时她可能又会陷入昏迷,甚至又跑去自杀。”
“她父母这么说也是有道理,反正只是暂时嘛,等她情绪和身体都稳定了,你就又可以见她啦!”老板娘听了男人的话后这样说着。
男人对着老板娘微微笑了笑后说:“你知道他们的暂时指的是多久吗?是十年啊!也就是这十年里我得要忍受这样没有她的日子,就算偶尔在路上碰面,也得要装作陌生人一般地和她擦肩而过。你知道这样的日子有多难熬,这样想爱却又不能爱的心情有多痛苦。”
男人用着近乎咆哮似
“虽然会很痛苦,但你还是选择了这条路吧!”老板娘用着怜悯的眼神看着男人。
老板娘的眼神让男人冷静了下来,点头说:“嗯,而且到今天就满十年了。”
“哦,真的吗!?那真是恭禧了,你努力撑了十年,到今天终于可以去见她了!”老板娘开心地说。
“是这样没错!但是愈到这一天,我反倒愈害怕。十年了,我的心意是没有改变,但是她呢?如果我跟她说了以前的事,她还是想不起我那怎样办?或者是她已经有男朋友,甚至于结婚了呢?”
“这就是我想教你的问题!!”男人似乎略带紧张的看着眼前年轻的女店主,静静地等待着她的答复。
“嗯……”老板娘说,“我想既然你这么爱那个女孩,她记不记得你其实并不重要,最多是重新开始而已,再重新追求她一次,再重新谈一次恋爱,其实也很不错吧,而且就算有男朋友了也没关系啊,把她从他手中抢过来不就行了吗?”
老板娘笑着说。“但是,”她忽然将表情严肃了起来。
“但是如果她已经结婚了的话,那你就放弃吧,我们结了婚的人啊,是最痛恨有人破坏人家家庭的了。”
“是吗!”男人低着头冷漠地说。
“没错,所以你可千万别做个破坏别人家庭的人哦。”
挂在门上铃铛又响了起来,走进来几个刚下课的大学生,老板娘走出吧台,忙着招呼这几位新来的客人。
“对了,”老板娘好象忽然想到了什么,转过头来看着男人。
“你为什么会想问我这些啊,我和你不过是第一次见面而已啊!”她好奇地问。
“嗯……为什么呢……大概是因为那个女孩曾说过,结婚以后要和我一起开一家像这样的咖啡厅吧。”
“哦,原来是这样子啊。”老板娘说。
“嗯,只是这样而已,只是这样而已,只是这样而已,只是……”男人不停地重复着同样一句话,就好象在藉此告诉自己什么似的。
爵士乐停了下来,使得整个屋子里,只剩下大学生谈笑的声音。
男人低着头偷偷地瞄着老板娘手上的结婚戒指,一滴温暖的眼泪,悄悄地滑进了那杯早已冷却的咖啡里。
3月11日

what is the most luxurious thing to u?

There are lots of things in this world. Among these, what is the most luxurious thing to u? Rolls-Royce? Airforce one? Häagen-Dazs ice-cream? Thousands feets of Bungalow decorate like a six star hotel at the seaside? gold ring with 24 carat diamond? Godiva chocolate? Limited edition Apple laptop? Ferrari's limited edition bicycle? Ducatti motorcycle? best chef in your kitchen? Billions of cash in your saving account? Gold bars in your locker? Those things you can't get? Those things other people think are luxurious? Thing with finest quality? or your mom's dishes and your happiness family?
 
Everyone has their own aims. When you were young, your goal always higher than what your ability can do. People always greedy to aim on what they think luxurious to them or other said it is luxurious. Some of them chasing to the greatest power in politics, some looking for the prosperities, some seeking to the finest quality product and best feeling. Some even dream to own all of above. However, when a people become older, a different view is pop up in their mind, they looking for the warmest family feeling, they just regret what they blind seeking for those useless things among their lifetime.
 
People always having a great ambition when they were young, then chase for it with their entire lifetime. Maybe human is a very special species, always trying to get something they couldn't reach but forgotten what's most important to them. Do you think everything you have and everything you aim to goal is important to you? So, what is the luxurious thing to you before you regret to get them?
12月30日

纯粹写爽

消失了许久,或许没人留意到,又或许有人会奇怪为何那么久没写文章。放假,是从上个月的二十一号开始的,回来那么久都没通知大家,但是部分人士已经见过我吧!回来那么久都干啥?我其实想找一份安定的工(所谓安定就是坐在办公室打字或当假期补习教师的)来过假期及赚钱的。很可惜,假期补习在我还没回来已经开始了,没补习中心要我哭泣,所以就在托儿所当了一两天的临教,看看小孩子。再来就找办公室的工,一开始很顺利地找到umobile要我,职位是data entry,工作是删除人家的线,签约三个月。可是,好景不长,才两个礼拜,工作接近完了,公司中止合约,直接来说是被人炒鱿鱼;两个礼拜,赚了大概两千,很多人说值得,但是就不是我所想要的安定工了。接下来,我找到另一份律师楼的工,是文员,就是打律师信的,位于高等法院旁边,工作量繁多,但月薪却是八百困惑,没有公积金和员工保险。我直接感觉自己被剁水鱼,然后干脆不干。现在还在失业当中,寄出去的履历表像雪花般多却没有一片飞回来。难道假期就注定要做promoter还是sales assistant之类的工?
 
虽说假期多在打工,但是我都有出去玩玩的,就像是某人从澳洲回来,就和他及忠皓去uma rani吃个早餐。然后,umobile失业的第二天就跑上了云顶,而且是下午上去傍晚回,通知人却没叫他们带冷衣那么疯狂的事。大家上去玩室内游戏,到starbucks喝ice blended并吹冷风,冷到发抖才跑回上车吹暖气,然后才回家。还有就是看了不知道多少场的戏。跑去pc fair拍美女照才发觉这次的pc fair 没什么美女。某人带我去clubbing,是他妈的闷,可能我不喜欢吧,哈哈哈!这个假期,我也买了一个半专业的照相机,canon SX10IS,20倍光学变焦,学会了什么是近物拍摄,人物拍摄及夜景拍摄,手法可能有些生涩,但是自认为不错因为是全手动(manual)而且是自己学的,哈哈哈!照片迟下上传。
11月9日

the man who can't be moved by the script

 
tis a quite touching song, latest from fm. but not know is it the latest in europe.
i like tis song pretty much especially the phrase"cos if one day u wake up and find that u missing me, and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth i could be, thinking maybe you'd come back to the place that we'd meet."

song title: The man who can't be moved
sung by the script

going back to the corner,
where i first saw you
gonna camp in my sleeping bag,
I'm not gonna move
got some words on cardboard
got your picture in my head
saying: if you see this girl can you tell her where i am
some try to hand me money
they don't understand
I'm not broke
I'm just a broken hearted man
i know it makes no sense
what else can i do
and how can i move on
when I'm still in love with you
cos if one day you wake up
and find that your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder
where on this earth i could be
thinking maybe you'd come back here
to the place that we'd meet
and you'd see me waiting for you
on the corner of the street
so I'm not moving
I'm not moving

police man says son you cant stay here
i say there's someone I'm waiting for
if its a day a month or year
got to stand my ground
even if it rains or snows
if she changes her mind
this is the first place she will go
cos if one day you wake up
and find that your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder
where on this earth i could be
thinking maybe you'd come back here
to the place that we'd meet
and you'd see me waiting for you
on the corner of the street
so I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I'm not moving

people talk about the guy
that's waiting in on a girl
woooaa wooo
there are no holes in his shoes
but a big hole in his world
ooooo
maybe i'll get famous for the man who cant be moved
and maybe you wont mean to
but you'll see me on the news
and you'd come running to the corner
cos you'll know it's just for you
I'm the man who cant be moved
I'm the man who cant be moved
cos if one day you wake up
and find that your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder
where on this earth i could be
thinking maybe you'd come back here
to the place that we'd meet
and you'd see me waiting for you
on the corner of the street
so I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I'm not moving
going back to the corner were i first saw you
gonna camp in my sleeping bag and I'm not gonna move

11月5日

誓约

承诺、答应别人的事,无论达至与否,皆称为誓约。从古至今,人们皆十分注重誓约承诺,无论是社会、学术、宗教还是家庭。从古人的诅咒,降头,各式各样的诗歌直到今天的的合约和保证书都是种种的誓约。从而可见,人们对诺言是多么的看重;换个角度来看,人从古到今都不曾相信彼此,而也只有人类是不相信彼此的,因为世界万物除了人类都没有勾心斗角,耍心机的事。人啊,只要是有利益的,违反誓约又如何,事后总能以各式各样的借口来掩饰自己。什么造福全人类,造福社会,都只不过是掩饰的谎言,造福自己之余却破坏了其他的幸福。从广义的角度去看,的确是有一套惊天动地,闻者伤心,听者流泪,感动他人的故事,但背后却牺牲了多少人的努力,多少人的血泪。
 
誓约,从不轻易的去立。好比说,当你对你爱的人立下永久的誓约时,是否有考虑到以后的你而不是当时的你是否还能够遵守约定?一句年少轻狂,就能很伟大地抹去当初的誓言吗?曾经有这么的一句话:“就连地球都不敢说永恒,更何况是区区几十年的人类?”,这句话教会了我不随便答应他人;就算要立下誓约,也要清楚地考虑到以后是否还能履行诺言还是会连累到他人,可能一个约定,让人等了你若约年,或者让人对你死心踏地,又或者心灰意冷。有一首日本童谣里记载着如此的一句话:“勾尾指 许个诺 说谎的要吞针千根”。无论多先进的社会,多团结的国家,都希望用诺言、合约来约束他人。合约,只不过是一纸约定,就算惩罚有多重,依然有人去违约;那更何况是那空口白话的永恒约定呢?
 
身为万物之灵的人类,需要有一纸合约才能给于他人信任,使否很可笑呢?是否比其他群居的动物更不如?如果怕别人失约,怎么就不学会相信他人呢?相信他人想离开你,相信他人想帮助你。相信自己,相信他人,才能获得快乐。
10月31日

廚師和老和尚[转贴]

老实说,这篇文章意义深重也,有时我自己也因太过在意眼前而忽略了其他的。珍惜一切,不只眼前的!!


廚師和老和尚


從前在山中的廟裡,有一個小和尚被要求去買食用油。
在離開前,廟裡的廚師交給他一個大碗,並嚴厲地警告:「你一定要小心,我們最近財務狀況不是很理想,你絕對不可以把油灑出來。」
小和尚答應後就下山到城裡,到廚師指定的店裡買油。
在上山回廟的路上,他想到廚師兇惡的表情及嚴重的告誡,愈想愈覺得緊張。
小和尚小心翼翼地端著裝滿油的大碗,一步步地走在山路上,絲毫不敢左顧右盼。
很不幸的是,他在快到廟門口裡時,由於沒有向前看路,結果踩到了一個洞。
雖然沒有摔跤,可是卻灑掉三分之一的油。
小和尚非常懊惱,而且緊張到手都開始發抖,無法把碗端穩。
終於回到廟裡時,碗中的油就只剩一半了。
廚師拿到裝油的碗時,當然非常生氣,他指著小和尚大罵:「你這個笨蛋!我不是說要小心嗎?為什麼還是浪費這麼多油,真是氣死我了!」
小和尚聽了很難過,開始掉眼淚。
另外一位老和尚聽到了,就跑來問是怎麼一回事。
了解以後,他就去安撫廚師的情緒,並私下對小和尚說:「我再派你去買一次油。
這次我要你在回來的途中,多觀察你看到的人事物,並且需要跟我做一個報告。」
小和尚想要推卸這個任務,強調自己油都端不好,根本不可能既要端油,還要看風景、作報告。
不過在老和尚的堅持下,他只有勉強上路了。
在回來的途中,小和尚發現其實山路上的風景真是美。
遠方看得到雄偉的山峰,又有農夫在梯田上耕種。
走不久,又看到一群小孩子在路邊的空地上玩得很開心,而且還有兩位老先生在下棋。
這樣走看風景的情形下,不知不覺就回到廟裡了。
當小和尚把油交給廚師時,發現碗裡的油,裝的滿滿的,一點都沒有損失。
其實,我們想比較快樂的過日子,也可以採納位老和尚的建議。
與其天天在乎自己的成績和物質利益,不如每天努力在上學、工作,或生活中,享受每一次經驗的過程,並從中學習成長。
一位真正懂得從生活經驗中找到人生樂趣的人,才不會覺得自己的日子充滿壓力及憂慮。
我想,這也是活得更積極,更樂觀的人生法寶吧。
越在乎的人,你反而越會對他產生誤會,
越在乎的人,犯錯你反而越不能原諒他,
越在乎的人,你反而對他會越不客氣,
越在乎的人,你反而越會裝做不在乎,
人就是這麼奇妙的!

树。叶子。风[转贴]

这篇文章蛮不错的,是转贴自一个网友的原创文章。分享一下!

树。叶子。风
---树---
会叫树的原因,是因为我擅长画水彩画,最爱画树,久而久之,
我的画作右下方索性以一棵树来代表我。
高中三年交过五个女朋友,有一个女孩子,我很爱她,却迟迟不追,
她没有美丽的面孔,没有姣好的身材,没有撩人的魅力,一个再平凡不过的女孩子。
我喜欢她,真的真的很喜欢她,
喜欢她的单纯,她的直率,她的可爱,她的智障,她的脆弱。
不追她的原因,也许是潜意识觉得平凡如她配不上我;也许是因为怕在一起后,
一切的好感都会消失;也许是怕外人的指指点点伤害了她也许是觉得,
她会是我的,不用急着为了她而放弃一切。
最后这个原因,让她陪了我三年,让她看着我和别的女孩子厮混了三年,
让她心痛了三年。
她很想当一个好演员,但我却像一个严苛的导演。我和第二个女朋友在厕所接吻,
被她撞见,她尴尬的笑笑说:“Go on!”然后跑掉,
第二天,她眼睛肿得跟核桃一样,我故意不去猜想是谁让她哭成这样,
嘲笑了她一天,她在所有人都回家后,在教室哭了起来,
她不知道练球回来拿东西的我,看了她一个多小时。
我的第四个女朋友,一直很不喜欢她,有次她们两个吵了起来,
我知道依她的个性不会去惹事,但我还是护着女朋友,她被我吼了一下后愣住,
眼泪滑了下来,我无视她的眼泪,陪女友走出教室,
第二天,她依旧嘻嘻哈哈的和我开玩笑,我知道她很难过,
但她不会知道我的心不比她好受。当我和第五个女朋友分手时,
我约她出去玩,玩了一天,我对她说:
“我有事要对你说。”她说:“真巧,我也有事要对你说。”
“我和她分手了。”
“我和他在一起了。”
我知道“他”是谁,他追她也有一阵子了,是个蛮可爱的男孩子,活泼有趣,
充满了热情,追她追得满城风雨。我不能表现自己的心痛,只能笑笑地恭喜她,
但当我回到家,心中的痛楚强烈得令我无法承受像有个千斤重的石头压在我胸口,
我无法呼吸,想大叫却叫不出来,眼泪竟然滑了下来,我掩面大哭,多少次,
我也看着她为了那个不愿承认的人掩面大哭。
毕业典礼时,我在手机上发现了一封简讯,这是十天前,我掩面大哭时传来的,
只是我一直没有去开过机。
“叶子的离开,是因为风的追求,还是树的不挽留。”
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---叶子---
高中时,喜欢搜集叶子,why?
因为我觉得,一片叶子要离开它长期依赖的树,好勇敢哩!
高中三年,我和一个男孩子很好,不算男女朋友那种好,是好朋友那种好,但是,
在他交第一个女朋友时,我学会了一种不该有的感觉,吃醋,心中的酸,
不是一颗柠檬可以比喻,那就像是100颗臭酸的柠檬,酸到不行,
他们只在一起两个月,当他们分手,我还得掩饰自己心中强烈的喜悦,
但是一个月后,他和另一个女孩子在一起。
我喜欢他,也知道他喜欢我,可是,他为什么总是不追我呢?
明明喜欢彼此,为什么不行动?每当他交一个女朋友,我就心痛一次,
一次又一次的打击,让我不禁怀疑,是我一厢情愿吗?不爱我,
为什么要对我那么好?他对我的好,已经不是普通朋友可以做到。
喜欢一个人好难过,我可以清楚的知道他的喜好,他的习惯,唯独他对我的感觉,
我猜不透,难道要我这个女孩子去开口吗?
尽管如此,我还是想在他身边,关心他,陪他,爱他,也许算是一种等待的行为,
等待他回来爱我,就像每天晚上等他的电话,等他的简讯,我知道,就算他再忙,
也会拨出一些时间给我。这样的等待,陪了我三年,等待是难熬的,
是令人想放弃的,但等到的那一刹那,让人第二天会继续等下去。
这样的煎熬,这样的痛苦,这样的幸福,这样的矛盾,陪了我三年。
直到三年级下学期,高二一个学弟喜欢上我,每天的热情追求,
令我从一开始的拒绝,渐渐愿意挪出我心房的一些位置给他。
他像一阵温柔而持久的风,撩拨我这片摇摇欲坠的叶子,到最后,
我发现我已经不想只留一点点的位置给这阵风,我知道这阵风,
会带我这片伤痕累累的叶子,到更幸福的地方。
于是我离开了树,树只是笑笑,没有挽留。
“叶子的离开,是因为风的追求,还是树的不挽留。”
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---风---
因为我喜欢的女孩子叫叶子,因为她有一棵令她依恋的树,所以我要当一阵风,
一阵呵护她的风。
第一次看见她,是高二我转来一个月后的事,个子小小的她坐在球场旁,
一双眼凝视着同和我在球场的学长,每天的社团时间,她总会坐在那里,
一个人,和朋友,她的眼光依旧凝视着他,当他和女孩子打打闹闹,
她的眼中有泪,当他看向她,她的眼中有笑。看她成了我的习惯,就像她爱看他。
有一天她没来,我心中没来由的焦虑与不安,我无法解释那种感觉,
除了不安,还是不安,而且那学长竟然也不在。
我冲去他们教室,躲在外面,看着学长骂她,她的眼泪,他的离去。
第二天,她依旧坐在场边,看着他,我走过去,对她笑一笑,拿了张纸条给她,
她先是惊讶的看着我,然后笑笑地收下。
隔天,她拿着纸条出现在我面前,然后离开。
“叶子的心太沉重,风吹不动。”
“不是叶子的心太沉重,是叶子根本就不想离开树。”
我回给她这段话后,她渐渐会和我说话,收我的礼物,接我的电话。
我知道她喜欢的不是我,但我还是有毅力一定要让她喜欢上我,
四个月内我告白了不下20次,每一次她都转移话题,
但我还是不会放弃,我决定要的人,我就一定会给它追过来!
一直到不知道第几次的告白,出了口,虽然知道她一定会又说到别的事,
但还是有一丝丝希望她的答应,没想到她都不说话
“你在干嘛?怎么不说话?”我对着话筒说。
“我在点头。”
“啊?”我不敢相信自己的耳朵。
“我在点头!”她大声叫。
我甩掉电话,匆匆披上一件衣服,上了机车,冲去她们家按门铃,
当她开门的那一刹那,
紧紧抱住她。
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“叶子的离开,是因为风的追求,还是树的不挽留。”
10月3日

幸福是懂得原諒的開始~[转贴]

幸福是懂得原諒的開始~

感情的開始... 有人會想用承諾去套牢一個人
有人會想用行動去感動一個人
有人會想用甜言蜜語去迷惑一個人
我們會發現
年紀越輕.越容易給承諾.......
像是我會愛你到永遠,
我永遠都不會變心
但等年紀慢慢大了..
我們卻也漸漸害怕給承諾
因爲經曆太多 受過傷害
所以我們害怕給.也怕接受
可是心裏對它卻還那一絲絲的期待
或許年輕的時候
對感情總是有那一股腦的熱情
想要表達出來讓對方知道..
想想當初那股傻勁, 真是可愛的好笑
事隔多年再問問自己, 後悔這麽愛過嗎?!
我想我們的答案都是一樣的..
雖然曾經爲了承諾努力過也被傷過,
但我們卻沒有後悔這樣愛過付出過..
這也是愛情令人着迷的地方 不是嗎?!~
在付出的同時, 我們也得到了快樂
隻要看到對方輕輕的一笑
這一切的一切都足夠了
你還在害怕再去愛嗎?!
想想當初的自己,想想當初那份你付出的心情,
如果隻是因爲上一段感情的不完美
而恐懼再碰觸愛情,
那是很不值得的
每個人都想被愛
但你也要先懂得享受你自己在付出的過程呀~
因爲它會幫我們瞭解這段感情是曾經如此美好過,
自己爲了這份感情如此用心執着過
去享受也去體會..慢慢會發現..
愛情美好的并不全是因爲它的"結果" 而是"過程"
選擇你所愛的...愛你所選擇的...^^
心因爲寬容顯得真實
愛因爲寬容才被看見
幸福是懂得原諒才開始的
世界上有好多好多用心付出愛情的人但得到的呢??
再多的難過、傷心、心痛
卻無法擊倒這些付出愛的人!!
即使愛的人對自己傷了多大的心,
他們總會安慰自己,
下次他一定不會這樣對我的,
所以再原諒他一次吧!!
還是很想好好掌握自己的幸福,
卻甯願隻求留在對方身邊,愛~~真的好苦~好苦~
某一天,我體悟到痛哭失聲是怎樣的,
當一個人看到自己最愛的男人(女人)
擁着另一個女人(男人)
從你面前走過時的那種心情,
我想那是心最痛最痛的時候吧!!
傷害一個愛你的人我想也是最痛苦的吧!!
我傷了一個愛我的人,痛苦的不隻是他,我也不好?
明明知道他是那麽的對你好,
卻忍的下心來傷害他,
但不愛他不是應該立刻告訴他嗎?
長痛不如短痛不是嗎?
即使被愛比愛人幸福,
但他隻不過失去一個不在乎他的人,
而我卻失去一個愛我的人,哪一個損失較大呢?
真愛的付出,是很容易,
但要收回卻要花好多的時間,

愛情究竟是一個如何難懂的東西呀!!
傻傻的愛,傻傻的等,到頭來卻是一場空.........
凡是真正重要的東西..一定伴随着痛苦免不了..
就好比獨自所感受的孤獨..
絕 ............
幸福是懂得原諒才開始的